John

THIS IS A PHOTO OF MY 44 YEAR OLD SON JOHN. THE PHOTO WAS TAKEN A COUPLE OF  YEARS AGO WHEN I WAS VISITING HIM IN ST. LOUIS. THIS BLOG POST IS ABOUT HIM TODAY AND HIS STRUGGLE WITH BEING LAID OFF FROM HIS JOB LAST AUGUST.. IT MAY BE A LONG TIME BEFORE HE HAS ANOTHER JOB. I TALK TO HIM DAILY AND TRY TO PICK THE RIGHT WORDS OF ENCOURAGEMENT. I ALSO TRY TO PICK THE RIGHT WORDS OF ADVICE WHICH IS NOT ALWAYS THE RIGHT THING TO DO BUT AS HIS MOM, I ALWAYS WANT TO FIX IT. JOHN ALSO HAS HEALTH ISSUES AND NOW NO INSURANCE. HIS HEALTH IS STABLE BUT THAT COULD CHANGE AT ANY TIME. HE HAS A DECISION TO MAKE AFTER HE GETS THROUGH HIS CURRENT MATH CLASS ON LINE WITH DEVRY UNIVERSITY. WHILE IT IS A POSITIVE THING TO DO, I CAN SEE IT IS ALSO DIFFICULT FOR HIM TO CONCENTRATE ON THE CLASS. SHOULD HE SIGN UP FOR THE NEXT CLASS AND ANOTHER BOAT LOAD OF STUDENT LOANS OR WAIT UNTIL HE IS EMPLOYED? I DON'T EVEN WANT TO TELL YOU WHAT HE ALREADY OWES IN STUDENT LOANS. AND WHAT AM I DOING? IN ONE MONTH I WILL BE ON A NEAR LIFE TIME DESIRE TO VISIT CUBA. SELFISH. THE TRIP IS PAID FOR AND NON REFUNDABLE SO I WILL GO BUT I HAVE TO TELL  YOU, OH BLOG OF MINE, I AM DEPRESSED OVER THIS WHOLE SITUATION; YES, LAY IN BED STARE AT THE CEILING DEPRESSION. JOHN'S CHRISTMAS GIFT WILL BE JANUARY RENT AND FEBRUARY AND ON AND ON UNTIL WHAT I HAVE IS GONE OR UNTIL HE GETS A JOB. I CAN'T DO ANYTHING ABOUT THE STUDENT LOANS. HE ALREADY OWES MORE THAN I HAVE IN SAVINGS. JOHN IS DOING HIS PART TO CURTAIL SPENDING SUCH AS EATING A MEAL A DAY IN A SOUP KITCHEN.  THE TITLE OF MY BLOG, TRANSLATED, IS THE LIFE AND MIRACLES OF JUDYK. COULD I HAVE THAT MIRACLE PART NOW , PLEASE.